Whenever people ask me what I am most passionate about, the most honest answer I can give is: 'the direct experience of life', or said another way, simply 'being'.
I find it rather humorous at times, how our minds can weave entire illusory worlds of separation from that which we all are: life itself. We are life! We are alive! We are. I am. How could it be otherwise? Think about it.
Yes, yes, I know, you've heard it all before. Just be here. Now. 'Yes, yes', the mind says, 'that's all well and good, but I've got important things to do now. perhaps once I've finished doing all those things I can focus on simply being, but really, who's got time for that?!'
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I can't think of any way I'd rather move through the world than embracing every moment to the fullest. This is my - our - natural state and I'm un-learning my way back every day, one step at a time. How does this translate into everyday life?
It is (I am) the fingers on my hands typing the keys on this keyboard, noticing how they find their own way without any effort on my part.
It is (I am) the cool air moving in and out of my nostrils; the breath breathing itself.
It is (I am) warm rose petal, raspberry leaf & alfalfa tea drinking itself across my lips.
It is (I am) the sounds of the heater blowing delicious warmth onto my feet and the delightful voices of things we call birds chirping away outside the kitchen window.
It is (I am) the un-doing of all the labels the mind would like to create. If there's truly no separation from 'me' and any aspect of life, then how do I know for sure that I am not all of this. All of it. Everything I see, taste, hear, sip, feel, luxuriate in, desire, reject, create, love, destroy, embrace, etc. etc.
Hmmmm....I wonder what I'll un-learn today?!
I awoke early this morning from a powerful dream. I was walking through old buildings, traveling back through time (even through the 1970s, where apparently the most important things - in my dream world that is - were music and movies, all classrooms had t.v.'s on the ceiling, and all books were made from movies rather than the other way around!).
Amidst the comic relief of various decades, I ventured through my own past and that of my ancestors, until I reached the source of the systemic pain in my family and its particular impact on me. I even got dates of incidents and experienced how the original trauma, and its inability to be grieved at that time, led to the peculiar pain and sense of disconnect I experienced in my own early life.
What followed in my dream visions were, somewhat paradoxically, both the experience of complete understanding, oneness and healing, as if all the pathways of my brain finally reconnected in their proper order; and the dissolution of my familiar life and a great sense of confusion.
Upon waking, only the sense of connectedness and healing remain, and the strong desire to share this message with others. The profound impact that consciously healing the systemic wounds in our families of origin, which I have witnessed and experienced countless times, is nearly indescribable. The power of looking - really looking - at how the past affects the present, has the power to shake everything up so what was once seen in a confused state suddenly becomes crystal clear.
This can be very disorienting to the mind. One of my favourite teachers, Byron Katie, says that the confused mind is like a mirror: it sees everything in reverse. Once our perception is corrected through questioning our beliefs and deep inquiry, the mind will naturally find its resting place. And as the Course in Miracles says time and again, all it takes is a little willingness for everything to begin to shift.
I am passionate about the direct experience of life and experiencing every moment to the fullest. This comes through continually being willing to question the way I think things are and discovering for myself again and again what is actually true.
Try it out next time you're feeling annoyed or upset by someone or something...can you absolutely KNOW that what your mind is telling you is happening is true? And hey, let me know how it all goes....I'd love to hear.
In love and sleepy morning light,
A new consciousness is arising on the planet and we are undergoing a profound spiritual transformation, both individually and collectively, whether we are aware of it or not. Each day brings forth a brand new opportunity to awaken to the miracle of life that is right before our eyes, and the profound joy that is our inherent birthright.
Little did I know that part of this journey for me would involve awakening to new ways of communication, including blogging!
And so, after some initial hesitation, I have decided to begin a blog, where I can share my thoughts, insights, knowledge and poetry with my beloved friends and clients.
I have discovered that my sense of purpose and meaning is deeply enhanced by the degree to which I feel connected in the world. This connection becomes a felt experience when I sense that I have a real impact on others and when I allow myself to be impacted in return. We are all intrinsically connected, and pain and disillusionment arise when we deny this truth and believe instead that we are separate isolated beings.
I am grateful for the opportunity to connect with others through this blog, to be of service in this world as a healer and counsellor, and to continue to be transformed by the daily lessons Life provides for me.
I welcome any and all feedback and questions and would love to hear about what helps you feel connected to yourself and gives you a sense of meaning?
Blessings, love and light to all sentient beings everywhere,