I awoke early this morning from a powerful dream. I was walking through old buildings, traveling back through time (even through the 1970s, where apparently the most important things - in my dream world that is - were music and movies, all classrooms had t.v.'s on the ceiling, and all books were made from movies rather than the other way around!).
Amidst the comic relief of various decades, I ventured through my own past and that of my ancestors, until I reached the source of the systemic pain in my family and its particular impact on me. I even got dates of incidents and experienced how the original trauma, and its inability to be grieved at that time, led to the peculiar pain and sense of disconnect I experienced in my own early life.
What followed in my dream visions were, somewhat paradoxically, both the experience of complete understanding, oneness and healing, as if all the pathways of my brain finally reconnected in their proper order; and the dissolution of my familiar life and a great sense of confusion.
Upon waking, only the sense of connectedness and healing remain, and the strong desire to share this message with others. The profound impact that consciously healing the systemic wounds in our families of origin, which I have witnessed and experienced countless times, is nearly indescribable. The power of looking - really looking - at how the past affects the present, has the power to shake everything up so what was once seen in a confused state suddenly becomes crystal clear.
This can be very disorienting to the mind. One of my favourite teachers, Byron Katie, says that the confused mind is like a mirror: it sees everything in reverse. Once our perception is corrected through questioning our beliefs and deep inquiry, the mind will naturally find its resting place. And as the Course in Miracles says time and again, all it takes is a little willingness for everything to begin to shift.
I am passionate about the direct experience of life and experiencing every moment to the fullest. This comes through continually being willing to question the way I think things are and discovering for myself again and again what is actually true.
Try it out next time you're feeling annoyed or upset by someone or something...can you absolutely KNOW that what your mind is telling you is happening is true? And hey, let me know how it all goes....I'd love to hear.
In love and sleepy morning light,